In the days that
followed, our families met and became fast friends. Marc and I were
inseparable. Even when I discovered that he was different, not the same as
anyone else, special, I adored him with a passion and spent every possible
moment at his side.
I was fiercely
protective of him, and would move the earth to make him smile, when he was sad.
Not so much then, but,
as the years passed, and we spent every summer together, I would fight anyone
who made him sad, or tried to hurt him. There were a depressing number, over
the years.
After the third or
fourth year of meeting up every summer, our parents became so friendly -
initially, they told me later, because of the relationship that had developed
between Marc and me - that we started to spend other holidays together. Marc
visited my home, and I went to him. It was one of those friendships that only
grew stronger with separation.
When I was twelve, Mr
Harmon was promoted in his job, and the family came to live, only a short bus
journey, from my home. By then, Marc had a sister, Judith, who was four years
old, and as pretty as he was, although very different. She had the same sunny
personality and sweet smile, but she was bright and inquisitive, quick witted
and talkative.
Marc was much quieter,
tending to sit back and watch; waiting to be presented with things, rather than
seeking them out. He barely spoke, and when he did it was usually single words
or short, disjointed sentences. He made himself well understood, though.
By then, I had
realised that Marc wasn't the same as everyone else, as anyone else. It wasn't
just his beauty and his sweetness; it was more, much more. Strangely, it has
never been an issue between us, and it was a huge shock to me the first time I
heard someone make a derogatory comment to him.
I found in
unbelievable that anyone would want to hurt Marc. He was so gentle and loving,
but, one time we were at the beach and there was a group of boys, about my age.
I was eleven and Marc was barely eight. We were walking through the arcade,
hand in hand.
Our parents were next
door in a bar and I think it was the first time I had been allowed to take him
anywhere on our own.
The boys were gathered
around one of the gaming machines, and they started nudging each other and
giggling. Marc was, and is, very distinctive looking, with his baby blonde hair
and vivid eyes, which are always wide with wonder at everything.
We were lost in the
colours and sounds of the arcade, and Marc was bouncing with excitement. When
the boys appeared in front of us, he grinned at them and reached out his hand
to touch a colourful wristband worn by the nearest boy. The boy instantly
snatched it back, causing Marc to frown.
“Are you two gay, or
what?” one of the boys asked. I didn’t even know what gay was, not then.
“Yeah... you’re a
couple of fags.”
“I...” I had no idea
what they were talking about, but I knew danger when I saw it and I was seeing
it, in the form of four large pre teens, with mean streaks a mile wide. If it
had just been me I would probably have put up a fight. I was well built, even
then, and have never run from confrontation. However, Marc was with me and the
thought of him being hurt or scared was unbearable. So I just took his hand and
walked away, down one of the aisles.
Unfortunately, the
arcade was almost empty and there was no one there to help us.
“Hey freaks,” one of
the boys called after us, and I felt Marc jerk. I stopped and looked at him. He
had blood on his cheek. He had been looking back, curious about the boys, and
not understanding at all why they were being unkind. He’d been hit by something
one of them had thrown after us.
For a moment, Marc had
stared at me, his eyes shocked, and then he had blinked hard, as the tears came,
and he started to cry. Of course, the boys loved that, and it whipped them into
even more of a frenzy.
“Aww, is the poor
little baby crying?”
“Why don’t you take
your boyfriend home to his mammy?”
“Freaks.”
For myself, I could
have ignored them and walked away; but Marc was here. Marc was bleeding and
crying, and I had to protect him at all costs. I carefully let go of Marc’s
hand.
“Stay here,” I said
gently, and guided him backwards, pressing him firmly against the machine.
He shook his head and gripped
my arm. “Don’t leave me,” he said in a small scared voice, looking up into my
face. I forced myself to smile and loosened his hand.
“Marc, it’s alright. I
promised to take care of you, and I will. Just stay here and you’ll be fine.”
“Jamie, no. I’m afraid. Jamie, no.”
“It’s alright. I’ll
take care of you.”
Marc shook his head.
“What’s the matter?
Doesn’t your boyfriend want to play?”
“He’s not my
boyfriend.”
“No, no, no,” Marc
moaned, getting more and more frightened by the situation, the threat that was
now almost palpable. “No Jamie, no. I want to go home. Home, Jamie, home.”
The boys had sidled
closer, and they were staring at Marc, as if he was some kind of exotic bug.
“What’s wrong with
him?”
“He’s weird.”
“There’s nothing wrong
with him,” I snapped. “Leave us alone.”
One of the boys put
his hand into his pocket and took out another stone. He drew his hand back, but
before he could throw I threw myself at him and caught him in the middle,
knocking him to the floor. When he was flat on his back, I pummelled him until
I heard Marc’s wail behind me.
I leaped to my feet,
and grabbed the nearest boy by the back of his neck, flinging him against one
of the machines. Marc was crouched on the floor, hugging himself, with his face
half turned away. The boys were poking him and making derogatory remarks.
“Retard.”
“Freak.”
“Spaz.”
I don’t know what
would have happened if the arcade attendant, probably alerted by the wail,
hadn’t appeared and taken control of the situation. Seeing Marc and the state
he was in he ordered the other boys out of the arcade and, with threats and
curses, they left.
“Are you alright? Are
you hurt?” He reached out his hand to Marc, but he shrank away and wailed
again. I crouched down and reached out to stroke his hair. Slowly, he turned
his head and showed a face streaked with blood and tears. I smiled at him and a
hesitant smile came back.
“It’s alright now,
Marc,” I said in a careful, even voice; the one I always used when he was
frightened, or hurt. “It’s all gone away, and I’m here. I’ll take you back to
your mam now. You know me, don’t you; you trust me?”
“Jamie,” he said
flatly, his eyes still blank and hurt. I hated myself that I hadn’t protected
him from that.
“Is he alright?”
“He’s... different. He
gets upset. He trusts me.”
“Are your parents far
away?”
“Next door.”
“Are you sure?” He
looked concerned. He was a nice guy.
“I’ll take care of
him.”
“I’m sure you will. Is
there anything I can do to help?”
“I’ll take care of
him.”
I was a stubborn kid.
He looked at Marc, who, by now, was smiling his sunny smile again and looking
at me with adoring eyes. The man smiled and nodded and then left us alone.
I took Marc by the
hand and led him back to our parents. All hell broke loose. Marc’s parents were
very protective of him, and they were all for calling the police. After first,
being cast in the role of villain for not taking care of him, once my mother
pointed out that there were always going to be arseholes who didn’t understand
Marc and that it wouldn’t be fair on him to keep him close all the time, I was
suddenly a hero.
There were other times
over the years when I fought to defend him, sometimes in more subtle ways as we
grew older.
Goddess Nephy! This is such a compelling story! I LOVE both boys already!
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